IF I DON'T GET SLEEP TONIGHT I'M GUNNA BE PRETTY DAMMNNN PISSED OFF. yes I will..OHHH YES I WILL!
I have been pretty peachy since I got home.. not I'm feeling eh..
checked out old old entries of mine:(.. I was so happy.. so stupid.. but so happy.
we hugged at the end tooooo:) RIGHT AFTER I WALKED INTO A CONE
I sat next to John Paul and after much effort from my friends.. he held my hand haha.. they kept like passing messages to him through the cell phone I was so embarrased.. but I guess when I went to the bathroom he told steph he was going to anyways and she was ruining it.. haha but :) I was very very happy..
I really like him alot.. I'm really happy actually..
humbug haha.. this blows. but.. nothing I can do about it now. as of now doesn't seem like anything will change. I still don't really know anything.. he's happy now, and that's what really matters.. I don't really know if he still like considers this a break?.. or if it really was just an excuse for the moment. I guess I kind of hope he likes me still not likely buut maybe alittle?, maybe not.. I've been pretty bitchy lately.. and how I am sorry :-/ it gets harder and harder not saying like I still love him but I guess I'm trying to accept that he probably never did feel like that towards me anyways. I was gazing at this picture of us together from Jessi's house sure he looks like he wants to die.. but hey! I was hugging him.. and it felt weird seeing that.. kind of like woohoo! I used to be allowed to do that! but.. I guess time can only tell.. and it's not like I'm going anywhere soo maybe eventually I'll be somewhat clued in.
Only the best I've ever had